| I am METAL, not some ass-kissing whore! |
[Mar. 13th, 2009|02:02 am] |
| [ | Feeling... |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | The music in my mind... |
| | Lost Horizon - Sworn in the Metal Wind | ] |
I guess I just needed to be told. And, boy, was I told!
Sworn in the Metal Wind - LOST HORIZON
~Walking in the shadow of life's dreary side
Fallen down memory lane
Winds whip the world, just like the woes whip my mind
Where is that time when "right now" was The words
When the heart burned with will like a flare
All I now keep is just damned commonplace misery...
Hey man! What is this?!
Sounds like wail of a wimp
Did you let loser side take command?!
Where's the warrior in you
And the spirit he got?
You say - "lost"
No! It's somewhere inside
And you know there's a force that unites all of us
Leave the wasteland we together will!
If you're broken, remember, you got faith within us!
Take now your next deep breath and revive
your old strength!
Facing the abyss of heart's lonely grief
The bitch has polluted my soul
Rains flood the earth, just like the tears flood my eyes
Never again will my life be the same
Nothing can heal up my wounds
Guile and disgrace shall now follow me into the end...
I just can not believe it
It's too weak to be true
Have you really forgotten your worth?!
Can't you see victory!?
You are now free again!
Look at me!
Yeah! I live my own life
If you once tasted treason from a female - leave that!
Every warrior has a gash on his sword
Don't forget you are metal, not some ass-kissing whore
Take some under your wings, but she must kiss the ring!
Winds of metal, make me once again
Feel clear air's breath blowing in my wings!
I possess magic force
I am free in my words
While the world lays right below my feet
Life of duties and dogmas are just frames formed by rats
How'd I know?
Hey! I'm a guardian of truth
Now! Is really the time to wake up you old jade
Such as Phoenix spreads his firewings
I will help you remember by kicking your ass
And the will shall return
And again hearts shall burn
All the horns now will sing
Leading you back to the metal winds!~
Story of my life! Hahahaha.
I had my second case conference yesterday. Karen reported. It was very much a continuation of the first report done by Cherry and truly illuminated parts of myself that, until now, I had either denied or had not been aware of. My frustrations, my incessant grandiosity... Well, I'll leave it at that since I can't disclose much.
First of all, thank you to Karen for surprising me with the content of the report. Without it, what followed would never have happened.
Thank you Dr. Ramos, and the rest of my Appraisal III class, for making me realize who I am. Thank you for showing me that I don't need to proclaim it to the world - I need only be it and people know it. Apparently, people already know it. I don't know about being a "great man," but it's nice to know that people do think highly of me, that even in the Psych Department people think so. Thank you for removing much of that self-doubt.
For the longest time, I've been living with jumbled lines of undisciplined passion. Thank you for reminding me of the arrowhead those lines need. Thank you for helping me remember by "kicking my ass." We all need a bump on the head sometimes.
(Gosh, adhering confidentiality makes this quite difficult. Hahaha!)
Thank you to the religious for trying to sell the Society. I don't know about signing up, but thinking about it allows me to reflect on what I'm missing in this life, on what my spirituality needs.
Finally, thank you Dr. Ramos and Sister Wina for the hugs at the end of the day. I had almost forgotten how good those feel.
I see why you're the one of the best, Ma'am, if not THE best. Thank you for not pulling any punches with me. I needed to hear all that. Thanks for the free therapy! ☺☻☺
Focus. That's what I need. That's what I should pursue. That's how my passion can be transformed into achievement, how ideals can be turned into reality, how dreams can be reached.
If greater learning about the self is the objective of the course, I think I should get an A. Hahahahaha! |
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